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Name: Joy
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Champaign-Urbana
Birthday: 3/30/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: I like to draw, paint, listen to music, sing in the shower when no ones around, play badminton and smash shuttlecocks.
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Member Since:
10/21/2005
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| Wow, so it's been a long long time since I've stepped foot into this place. School year is going well meaning I'm more on top of things. I'm glad that I'm writing stuff that I need to do down and jotting down dates and times of things I plan to attend and actually using my Ebook. Haha. I think classes are going a lot better, but somehow I stink at exam taking or maybe is that I just don't seem to study enough *sigh.* Also thinking of switching majors. Not sure how it will go tho. Thinking of trying Psych 100 to see how I like it and if it goes well, then maybe I'll switch into that major. MCB is killing me... Not sure what I will tell my parents tho because one of the things that they emphasized most was to stick to one major once I had it chosen...
Lotz of classes are opening up my eyes too! AAS 100 is one of the most enlightening classes I've taken so far and I really enjoy it. I mean althought it fulfills a gen. ed. and I know it. I feel as if I will be taking a lot with me out of that class. I'm glad that I'm learning more about what it is to be Asian American and of past struggles that people have had to face in order to be where we are today.
I'm also proud of how well my little sister is doing this semester. I'm glad that she stuck with cross country and endured the ickiness of running (no offense to you runners out there). I think she's doing indoor track in winter and hopefully giving badminton a chance this spring *crosses fingers.* She's a crazy little freshman that's also taking a bunch of hard classes and still able to handle everything with grace. I envy her. Haha.
***Lastly, want to take this time to thank all my friends that are always so supportive of me and what I do. That help to push me to get stuff done and even tho I get annoyed initially, I know it's for the best after. I'm glad that I have friends that are always there to lend a ear when I need to vent and even tho sometimes, they have no clue what I'm talking about, they are still there to nod and pretend to understand what I'm talking about. Haha I know I don't always express how lucky I feel to have you guys in my life, but know that if you guys ever need me that I'll there for you.
Sometimes You Have To Choose A Song |
| by Gail |
Rain . . .
Softly falling down . . .
each drop a symphony of sound . . .
as it hits the tin roof . . .
tap . . . tap . . . tap.
It can sound just like a sad song with a slow beat . . .
the kind that makes you daydream . . .
and feel sad and sigh . . .
as you think of what might of been or could be in your life.
Or maybe it is a happy song that brings back sweet memories . . .
tender thoughts and special smiles . . .
thinking of someone who makes your heart beat faster . . .
and your laughter ring with happiness and joy.
Or maybe it is a love song . . .
with sweet and soft lyrics . . .
tender and romantic and sensual . . .
that makes you think of dancing in the rain.
Only you can decide which song . . .
is the one you are hearing . . .
which music soothes your soul . . .
and which song you want to sing along with.
Sometimes, you have to choose a song . . .
and the choosing isn't easy. |
****Good Poem****
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| So today I accidentally tripped on my keys and hurt my foot pretty bad. My dad asked me if I was okay, while my mom replied to my dad by saying that I always leave stuff around. No concern whatsoever in the tone she used. Since China, I've come to realize that my relationship with my mom is getting weaker and weaker. I used to be able to tell her everything. However, now it's difficult to tell her everything when it doesn't seem as if she cares. My mom was the person I used to be able to go to when all seemed hopeless. She used to be supportive, but now she just seems as if she wants to rid herself of me. I feel as if I get the brunt of her blame in almost everything. When I try to help her out, she complains of how its not done right instead of a "Thank You" for the effort. Used to be so easy making her happy, but now after so many failed attempts, it's hard to keep on trying.
My mom also said that she doesn't enjoy how my grandma always had favorites among her children and that she tries hard to please her. I can see it in her eyes that she's sad that my grandma doesn't acknowledge her for her accomplishments, but can she see that she's putting me through the same thing?
I started noticing in China that she snaps at me more often than she snaps at my little sister. Just happened to forget me when passing out items at every meal. Once on the trip, I was speaking to her in a reasonable tone and she stated "that's enough" in front of our whole tour group. It was truly embarassing and it felt like a slap across the face because she had never said that to before. I also started noticing that she stays mad at me for longer periods of time, lasting days, when she forgives my little sister within minutes. It seems as if my little sister can get away with saying anything to my mom and still get away with it, not that my mom deserves it.
Hurts a lot when my moms, smiling, face because of something "funny" my little sister said gets replaced with a cold glare because of something I say. Is it because I'm not good with words or something? Maybe I'm not a comedian, but if something I say isn't funny, then you can just say so.
I just hope the connection that I have with my mom won't be permanently cut off because I want to be a daughter that my can be proud of...
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| Do you remember your senior year?
Fill this out about your SENIOR year of high school! The longer ago it was, the more fun the answers will be!
1. Who was your best friend?:
I love em all!!!
2. What sports did you play?
Badminton!!! :D
3. What kind of car did you drive?
Toyota it finally broke down this summer...so we got a new one XD
4. It's Friday night, where were you at?
Workin' at my parents' place or Rosati's Pizza yum yum
5. Were you a party animal?
Not really
6. Were you considered a flirt?
Um not sure, I don't think so
7. Ever skip school?
Nope. I wish!!!
9. Were you a nerd?
probably
10. Did you ever get suspended/expelled?
Nope
11. Can you sing the Alma mater?
I don't think we had one...
12. Who was your favorite teacher?
Miss G, Mr. Potter, Mrs. Martin, Miss Allured, Mr. Roe and Mrs. Ruggiero actually now that I think about it...I LOVED EM ALL!!! I was lucky oh, except gym teachers haha
13. Favorite class?
Erm...Oil Painting
14. What was your school's full name?:
Wheaton North High School
15. School mascot?:
Falcons. Whoot!
16. Did you go to Prom?
Yup
17. If you could go back and do it over, would you?
I think so, it wasn't too bad :D
18. What do you remember most about graduation?
It was really long, but one of my friends gave an awesome in your face kind of speech haha
19. Favorite memory of your Senior Year?
I think it was our post prom. Absolutely awesome
20. Were you ever posted up on the senior wall?
There was a wall?
21. Did you have a job your senior year?
Yup, at a pizza place that I still work at once in a while and still get 50% of at haha isn't that awesome mmm yummy greasy food!!! Haha
22. Who did you date?
No one
23. Where did you go most often for lunch?
Cafeteria or like the last few days I went to Arby's and like McDonald's
24. What did you do after graduation?
Party!!! and work haha
25. Who was your crush?
This kid I liked since 7th grade and finally got over b/c I realized that the one I have now is much better :) I LOVE YOU RYAN!!!
26. When did you graduate?
2005
27. What were you involved in?
Just Speech Team for a year and Badminton and then work work work
28. Who was your biggest rival in sports?
Grrr...Wheaton South...stupid tigers...
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